To see how I used to be
During moments of adversity
As I stared down that trash bin
All I could think Was
I gave up spiritually
As I got sick because
Of all the fear and worry
During many track meets
I would get so nervous
Facing this battle
Within me
It's like every weekend
I was part of a spelling bee
The nerves kicked in
I'm like a, b, c
What comes after d
All I COULD DO
WAS THINK about the worry
And then before I knew it
I was throwing up
And filled with agony
This is my story
This is war
You see
Lies would repeat
Causing My nerves
To increase
as these thoughts
Wouldn't stop
If only I could retreat
Years ago It was
Because I felt lonely
And I would worry
Consistently
Wanting a friend
But nobody truly
Understood me
But as time went by
My thoughts
We're just distractions
As I thought about
What was around me
My mind was caught up
On things
As I thought about people
And Throwing up
I could hear that ring
If I ever looked at a trash bin
Then i knew at that moment
That my thoughts were becoming
Like strings
Long
Never ending
The battle kept reoccurring
And if I didn't stop these thoughts
I would only shrink
Like a flower with no watering
But you see
This war wasn't over
I had to keep fighting
Mentally
I wasn't about to give up
Spiritually
This war
wasn't about to end
That easily
So I began to work
On a different strategy
Refraining from the thoughts
Of the enemy
And allowing God to
Work within me
So that It wasn't by my power
But through God
Who ran in me
As I focused on the z
Rather than the a, b, and c
The z being the kingdom of God
While the other letters
were the things
The things I worried about
The things I thought about
The things I wrestled with
I began to believe
That God had no limits
And that's when everything
Changed internally
God showed me if I focus on Him
Then it's through the release
He gives supernatural peace
But...
Why would I keep receiving these thoughts
Why would I keep having these feelings?
I had to stop
And I had to think
And when I thought
I realized the problem was me
And I was the one
Who needed healing
It was all in my mind
It was all in my head
It was all up in my spirit
The problem wasn't even big
I WAS JUST DEAD
Dead to the power of God
Dead to The power of His spirit
Dead to the realization
That the same spirit that lives in Jesus
Also lives in me
I had to declare it
I began to realize that
This was war
I began to understand
That the power
To overcome
Came with me
Opening up my eyes
So I could see
And rebuke thoughts
in the name of Jesus
Speaking over my race
Because Satan has no power
I just had to look at Jesus' face
Because He works nonstop
Praying interceding
Fighting in this war
As He took every detail
And opened up a new door
Of freedom
Joy
And a testimony
As God was the one
To get ALL THE glory
As I stopped holding on
But letting go
As He gained the victory
Songs popped up in my spirit.
I knew He was there with me
I just had to shift my mind
And believe that He had all
Authority
The authority to cast out
Any worry
And fear
Any thoughts from the enemy
All I can do is thank Him
As I think about what He's done
For me
When I lost
I really feel like I won personally
As he's used a simple sport
To Open my eyes so I could see
And do things miraculously
Things that I couldn't have done
Without Elohim
He's made me faster
Stronger
No new training this year
As God moved in and through me
As He was my very steer
I asked God to do
What only He could do
So that nobody could compare
And that's when He took over
As He began working upstairs
In those heavenly realms
God was moving
As I was unaware
So I write this to you
To show how
God will take your heart
And spiritually
Shape it
If you let Him work His art
He will be the one
To take you far
Just hold onto Him
And He will be your very car
Even if you're a wreck
And you feel like you can't win
Just remember Gods always been
Fighting for you
Protecting you
He wants to be your friend
But you have the realize
That we are living in a war
Ephesians 6: 13-14
Says To grab not part
But the full armor of God
So that when the day of evil comes,
You may be able to stand your ground,
Get buckled up with the belt of truth around your waist,
With the breastplate of righteousness in place,
And with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace
And run this race
And finally,
Take up the shield of faith,
With which you can extinguish
All the flaming arrows of the evil one.
Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit,
Which is the word of God.
Because through the word of God
There is power
In the name of Jesus
To break every chain
And never forget
NEVER stop
Always speak against
Praying over
Your circumstance
Your body
Your family
Your friends
Because theres no time to
Sit and let the devil walk all over us
It's time to prepare fOR WAR
It's time to show that the devil
Sure aint gonna win
And put on the full armor in place
As this my friends,
This means war!